maybe this is my only way out
i hate life right now
im suicidal.. help me

The Truth

Jesse,
your gone now.
no you didn't move.
you ran away.
not because your life sucked.
not because you felt like you didn't belong.
but because you are brave.
you actually followed your belief. that we should live our life to the fullest.
you left, and now your doing everything you wanted to do all your life.
you'll see the west coast again like when you were little.
you'll see Colorado and the mountains.
you'll see the world.
the rules and law tells us what we can and cannot do.
so every day everyone is not living there life to the fullest because they follow the rules, they follow everything society tell us.
you were on of the brave Jesse.
i love you for that.
i wish i was only as brave.
this may be my last goodbye to you.
get out there and do everything you were meant to do.
get out there and see the world, ill be right there by your side as you said "close to your heart"
i wish you'd come back, but i know you wont.
everything i never knew i wanted i found in you.
your everything i never knew i needed.
your the most amazing person ive ever met.
the world is full of amazing stuff and i know you'll find it.
never forget me.
never forget that your "real" home is here, and that we all miss and love you.
so this is it, the end.
i'll never forget the times we shared.

Goodbye, I love you.
Sarah Nicole

Dont Say Its Over

in a week or so
whenever this something dramatic happens
this blog might become my life
just warning you

i feel un-important to you

maybe thats just me though

Everyone is changing, there's no one left that's real..

i figured out i may want to be one of those people
who makes music for movies
like the people who made music for movie like:
titanic, avatar, princess mononoke, spirited away, howls moving castle
and whatever other movies have classic music in them that people remember

examples of music:
http://www.playlist.com/playlist/20427777035

the first four songs ;)

You....

i think your amazing
i think your talented
i think you know what your doing
i think you have it figured out
i think your just what i need
i think your everything i could dream up




i think i love you
but im scared to say

i wanna leave this town so bad
this is not were i wanna be
i want to travel the world
to see the amazing places written down throughout history
this world has so much to offer and i want to take what the world can give me
but.. im stuck here
in a little town
i can have little adventures but nothing close to what i want to experience
nothing close to what i can dream up
but then dreams are dreams
so does this mean ill never get my fantasy adventure..

i wonder if you even care..

making a new youtube
check it out soon ;)

life is confusing
but when you find what you've been looking for
you just know
the feeling is the best thing ever

i dont know whats waiting for me
but watever is out there i wanna be with you for the ride
i want to take you with me to travel the world
we will go where life takes us
and ill enjoy ever minute of it
just because you'll be there with me
and because you make my dreams come true

so my life right now is going good
i found people in it worth treasuring
and holding on to

my birthday is coming up soon
someone told me they have a plan for my birthday
and they wont say what it is
and itssss driving me crazy

anyway i guess this is just a update because
alot has happened recently
and its the most amazing things

SarahNicole♥

I'm so happy with my life right now
i have amazing friends and amazing people
and met someone in my life i think will be here for a long time
i just started my sophomore year and so far it has been amazing

i miss him so much its hurts me
why cant he understand
i thought he got me
he actually knew who i was
but i guess i was wrong
im always wrong

i need some new friends, but i will stay true too my old friends and i will not forget them, for sure

i've been upset when i say im not
it seem as though everything is falling apart
people are leaving my life so quickly
i cant keep track
so many things i should have done
to make everything right
but i didn't do them
now everything's disappearing before my eyes
everything is leaving me
and i can't stop it

And who do you think you are
Running around leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are

i lost my phone

Today

today is a blur

its raining
its pouring
some old man out there is snoring...

i was told i should say whats up
in my life

but i feel like not writing
i wouldn't know what to write

im told to get things off my chest

i look at the past alot now a days
the past was better

the past was amazing
i should forget the past or at least not
want it back so much

because its not coming back
the past will never come back

i can only dream

selling my car for a new one
the battery is dead right now so i have to fix that
my friends are on there way over
im cutting there hair
got new razor and scissors for the project
right now im a little sad but i think ill be fine soon

Trust Few
No-One

Ever

I Like Music
Music If Life
Life Is Music
It Keeps Me Going
It Keeps Me Strong
It Helps Me Move On
Dear Diary,
Please Never
Take The Music Away

I dont know what to do
he's in my dreams
hes there when im awake
hes everywhere
i think about him constantly
he probably doesn't think about me abit
but he always there
i cant get rid of him at all
what am i do to

4:29pm Wednesday

Today was fun, spent time with my best friend
still thinking about him
wish dreams of him and me would go away
i know so many thing to write now
but i'll write some later tonight maybe tomorrow
goodbye

Myself

Blog 1

i always find myself wanting a happy ending
perfect, wonderful, like a fairytale
a perfect movie, my perfect movie
of course those movie were lies
nothing happens the way it should
nothing turn out the way you want
you work for those perfect ending
and still dont get them sometimes
things im my life are not good
not good at all
i dont know who i am
but i pray i will find myself
i will find me
i will be who i was suppose to be
there is a destiny out there for me to follow
a forest in which i will set my path for history to find
that path may be filled with sorrow and despair
but it may also be filled with happiness
a path with many beautiful creatures around it
and path with a few small hills
and many big hills
a few bumbs
then a few stumbles
but at the end of my path
will be the most beautiful thing you've ever seen
the most wonderful sight you could think of
the end of my path for everyone will be different
it will be what you find most important to you