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all i can think about

I haven't been on in a while
nothing new really.
so much has happened.
he came back. then he left again.
but im actually doing fine.
im starting to be myself again.
which is wonderful.
i've had a new light to my life now.

maybe this is my only way out
i hate life right now
im suicidal.. help me

The Truth

Jesse,
your gone now.
no you didn't move.
you ran away.
not because your life sucked.
not because you felt like you didn't belong.
but because you are brave.
you actually followed your belief. that we should live our life to the fullest.
you left, and now your doing everything you wanted to do all your life.
you'll see the west coast again like when you were little.
you'll see Colorado and the mountains.
you'll see the world.
the rules and law tells us what we can and cannot do.
so every day everyone is not living there life to the fullest because they follow the rules, they follow everything society tell us.
you were on of the brave Jesse.
i love you for that.
i wish i was only as brave.
this may be my last goodbye to you.
get out there and do everything you were meant to do.
get out there and see the world, ill be right there by your side as you said "close to your heart"
i wish you'd come back, but i know you wont.
everything i never knew i wanted i found in you.
your everything i never knew i needed.
your the most amazing person ive ever met.
the world is full of amazing stuff and i know you'll find it.
never forget me.
never forget that your "real" home is here, and that we all miss and love you.
so this is it, the end.
i'll never forget the times we shared.

Goodbye, I love you.
Sarah Nicole

Dont Say Its Over

in a week or so
whenever this something dramatic happens
this blog might become my life
just warning you

i feel un-important to you

maybe thats just me though

Everyone is changing, there's no one left that's real..

i figured out i may want to be one of those people
who makes music for movies
like the people who made music for movie like:
titanic, avatar, princess mononoke, spirited away, howls moving castle
and whatever other movies have classic music in them that people remember

examples of music:
http://www.playlist.com/playlist/20427777035

the first four songs ;)

You....

i think your amazing
i think your talented
i think you know what your doing
i think you have it figured out
i think your just what i need
i think your everything i could dream up




i think i love you
but im scared to say

i wanna leave this town so bad
this is not were i wanna be
i want to travel the world
to see the amazing places written down throughout history
this world has so much to offer and i want to take what the world can give me
but.. im stuck here
in a little town
i can have little adventures but nothing close to what i want to experience
nothing close to what i can dream up
but then dreams are dreams
so does this mean ill never get my fantasy adventure..

i wonder if you even care..